moving is bittersweet there are so many feelings, but today is different because today is the day that i lost my brother 12 years ago. today is the day i realized that when we move i will be leaving the last place i talked to chris before he took his life. we had been talking a lot more in early 2006. we were planning for him to bring his fiance & her son down for a vacation in san diego in july. i was looking forward to it so much. to host my big brother & his future family. we had just installed the travertine floors in our home & i was researching who to hire to install the baseboards... the baseboards have not been installed for 12 years. i realized today that i must have been subconsciously avoiding finishing that project. i have avoided thinking about that trip. i have avoided thinking about him. it hurts to look around my house knowing that this is the house he would have walked in, slept in, laughed & talked in, but he never did. i think in some way ...
WOO HOO! I'm cheering. :)And October 7th is the beginning line, not the finish line. :) He! He! I'll be cheering for 18 more years after that. :)
ReplyDeleteYeah... :o) a blog... I like to follow blog, what fun! Again, congrats!! So excited for you and to keep in touch via blog world. :o)
ReplyDeleteHooray! I am glad you are keeping a blog so I can see pics etc. Cute background to! Hope you are feeling good :)
ReplyDeleteI am SO excited for you both!!!! Love you!!!
ReplyDeleteHi Heidi! Congratulations! I am so excited for both of you... I mean all three of you! This is one special baby to be chosen to have you as his or her mom! I knew we were in this together and I knew we were close but I didnt realize exactly HOW close until I read your blog- I am due October 7th as well! We need to chat!
ReplyDeleteYou both look deliriously happy, as you should be.
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